I Did a Thing...

This week I did a thing...something that even as I type this, seems unimaginable to me. I resigned from my job. I do not have another job waiting in the wings. I do not have a bank account that will support me "finding myself." But as sure as I know the back of my hand, I knew I had to do it.

The truth is that I am unhappy. Ironic, isn't it? The girl that wrote the book on happiness is unhappy. But that's the thing...I KNOW I'm unhappy...and one of the ways that I know it, is because I've had true happiness before. Once you know what that feels like - you just can't settle for anything less.

Don't get me wrong. I am not miserable. I have good times. I have friends. I have fun and laugh, and it is all genuine. But there is a huge, gaping hole inside of me that was filled with happiness...and I have to fill it again.

Couldn't I fill it though - couldn't I get my happiness back while still working at my job? If I thought I could do that, I definitely would have. My boss was (is!) great. The company - great. My co-workers - also great. But I owed it to them to do this on my own.

I moved to Maryland last year from Florida. I loved every single second of being in Florida. Although I moved here willingly, it was not my location of choice. I followed my boss (at the time - at his request), but things went awry after my arrival and didn't work out the way we had planned. By that time, I had already bought a condo here - so I was kind of stuck.

And stuck is the way I have felt. I don't know if I can or even should return to Florida. At this point, I don't know anything. I know I need to work, and so I have opened myself up for new opportunities. I believe everything happens for a reason. I believe my God and Angels are supporting and protecting me. I feel like everything will work out in the end. I just don't know how.

That's where FAITH comes in...

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